Saturday, December 18, 2021

An Unwelcome Christmas Present (12-18-2021)

They say that no news is good news, and I know that my last writing explained that my Husband's aggressive Advanced Metastatic Prostate Cancer was in remission, but again, stage IV, and very aggressive, so I've done my very best to remain in good spirits knowing that nothing is promised, but still...

As part of his treatment (yes, he’s still on chemo) he recently had a PET scan, and the Oncologist called in the late afternoon this past Thursday (12-16) and told him that one of his lymph nodes is growing. It’s currently over 3cm, so he goes in next week for another biopsy on the 23rd. My Husband isn’t nearly as worried as I am, but I tend to worry much sooner and much more than him anyway, and I’m already thinking he’ll probably get more radiation (UGH!) or maybe heavier chemo.

I haven't mentioned this to our friends because why ruin their Christmas/Holiday Season with more potentially bad news? As it is, Our beloved dog and my Support Animal, Donna, died while we were away visiting his family in November, so I'm working on training a new Pitbull that we named Panda Moe-Neeum that we rescued from the pound. She's 5 years old, and VERY enthusiastic, so much so that we are covered in bruises from her love.

Anyway, I'll post more as we find out. Please keep us in your thoughts and prayers, and understand that answers are far more important to us than negative results that will only lead to MORE poking, prodding, and testing.

The (Occasionally) Lost Wife

Thursday, May 20, 2021

TODAY (5-20-2021)

Today was the first time we've had a face to face meeting with an Oncologist in over a year. It was a new (to us) Oncologist and he was pleasant and took his time answering our questions. I did a lot of talking because my husband often forgets things, and well, I was nervous.

The Oncologist reminded us just how serious and aggressive my husband's prostate cancer was (as if WE didn't know!) but then he hit us with the GOOD news: Only one more year of chemo to go! After that, there will be close monitoring, and, ONLY if necessary, chemo.

Now, I know that doesn't sound like much, but add in the BEST NEWS EVER and it all makes sense. One word:

♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡

REMISSION!!!!!

That's right! My husband's AGGRESSIVE Advanced Metastatic Prostate Cancer is in REMISSION! I know it doesn't mean cured, but remission is the very best we can ask or hope for, and it really is a miracle.

The Lost Wife (Who feels less lost by the minute)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mWvxORi2pc0

And Then The Pandemic (5-20-2021)

Okay, so the whole COVID-19 Pandemic got to us. By that, I mean everything (and I mean EVERYTHING) came to a standstill, except for my husband's continued chemo after his 9 weeks of daily radiation. The radiation was grueling, and as I stood and watched, his energy and strength was taken from him.

A person can only worry and cry so much before the tears just stop flowing from exhaustion, and that's what happened to me. As the Pandemic, and later, Lockdown occurred, we struggled with his inability and unwillingness to go out of the house, or even downstairs unless he HAD to. He went well over a month without going outdoors, and even as he started feeling a little better, my words of encouragement fell on deaf ears.

In July through August, my two youngest, DIL, and 3 young grandchildren contracted COVID-19.Fortunately, it was a mild case, and they haven't suffered any long lasting effects from it. They also moved from an apartment in Moreno Valley to a house by Lake Perris. That's right! My youngest son and his wife BOUGHT a house! It's really nice, and located at the end of a cul-de-sac in a quiet neighborhood.

Is September, my husband and myself quietly celebrated 7 years of marriage. I'm truly grateful for our time together, even when we make each other crazy.

Thanksgiving was EXTREMELY quiet, and finding a turkey was quite the adventure! We wound up with a HUGE 22 pounder because all the small ones had been snatched up before I went shopping. Christmas and the New Year soon followed, and before we knew it, vaccinations became available. We has our first one 6 days post-Easter, and our second one the day before Mother's Day. Later in the week, we all went out to celebrate Mother's Day INSIDE a restaurant! It was really weird after being stuck in the house for so long.

Well, that brings us to TODAY and a new entry. But I want to thank everyone for their thoughts, prayers and emails.

The Lost Wife (who is feeling EXTREMELY grateful)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OrCgrZA8xyo